Selma Blair spoke about her addiction!
Selma Blair described her struggle with alcohol, which began in childhood and lasted for several decades, in her memoirs Mean Baby, published by People magazine.
Selma Blair described her struggle with alcohol, which began in childhood and lasted for several decades, in her memoir 'Mean Baby', published by People magazine.
'I don't know if I would have survived my childhood without alcohol. That's why it's such a problem for many people. It's a really great consolation and relief in the beginning, in my case in the first few years because I started very young. It was a mechanism for dealing with problems, ' Selma said.
She described the beginnings of her alcohol addiction.'The first time I got drunk, it was a revelation to me,' said 49-year-old Selma. She drank wine during the Passover Seder or ritual dinner that marks the beginning of the Passover.
'No one paid attention to how much I drank … I got drunk that night. I got very drunk. I ended up in bed next to my sister Katie. In the morning I couldn’t remember how I got to her bed,' she said.
She said she didn't get drunk as a child but she would drink a sip whenever she became anxious and in those moments she felt relief. 'Usually, I was barely drunk. I became an expert on alcoholism and skilled at hiding my secret,' she said.
Her alcoholism escalated in her teens. On one spring trip, she was raped after drinking alcohol all day.'I don't know if they both raped me, but one of them definitely did. I was calm and waiting for it to pass. I wish I could say that what happened to me that night was an anomaly, but it wasn't. I was raped, several times, because I was too drunk to say ‘please stop’, ' Blair said.
The actress says she rarely talked about the rape she has experienced, but it is a key part of her memoirs.
'My trauma was greater than I realized. I didn't realize that attack was important in my life. I had so much shame and guilt. I'm grateful I felt safe enough to write it down on paper and then talk about it with my therapist.' the actress said.
Blair is sober since 2016, and by writing the memoir she hopes to help others who have been through or are going through similar situations. 'Mean Baby' memoirs will be available from May 17th.
